The Non-Conformist

The idea or thought of starting over is frightening for some. For others, starting over is natural, just a part of life. They are right. I had to start over last August [2011] when the person I was dating for the past 2.5 years did something to me that hurt me. I left the situation. Back at square one - single. Then I found myself having to go back "home" in a sense. I moved "back" with my uncle for a few months, to heal, to get back to me, to start over. That was tough for me, because I was independent and liked that I had my own. The break up did not hurt me financially, because I paid for everything. (Foolish, right?) But, I needed to make some changes, and that was the start of it all. Now, I'm in a new city, with a new man, and major plans. Starting over wasn't so bad.

What is a dream? How does one achieve a dream? When dreams are denied where do they go? When dreams are achieved, does dreaming stop? To live out a dream is most rewarding, but it is not without its hardships. Really, hardships make dreams worth having and fighting for. The fight remains even after one is within their dream - living. It gets tougher, especially when you are doing right. William Butler Yeats said "Things fall apart - the centre cannot hold". My center holds. I know this because I have lived in an ongoing gyre , and I am here to tell it. My story. My fight - my struggle has been victorious because it hasn't been me alone. I have Help. God. Over the last several weeks, lies have been told, and things have been done that has made me ultimately question my dreams. It seems as though I have been set up to fail, but I feel and believe I am not. The situation itself is tough, and I have entered into a failing environment. I AM NOT A FAILURE. Prior to these thing...